January 7, 2010
taking it to the next level

P90X… All I’ve heard is great stuff! This year though I’m already going into it in shape I want to get in amazing shape. It’s definitely a commitment and a little bit of dough but I’ve got my credit card in my hand and there’s no turning back. One of my minor goals this year was to be a more consistent blogger and I’m definitely going to keep my tumblers up to date on what’s worth it and what’s not! I have a BMI of 20 so I don’t necessarily want to lose any weight but I want to get toned, feel confident about my body no matter what, in whatever I wear, wherever I go.

Truly writing about this and seeing it on screen makes me feel like I’m coming across as vain. But we’re all blogger here and self admitted or not, we’re all a little vain.

Confession: I’ve been a vegetarian for 2+ years now and been completely strong willed, never once succumbing to temptation but today I flaked. I don’t know what came over me, I put zero analysis into it before cutting this porkchop up with my knife. It smelled 200 times more amazing than it tasted and I barely put a dent in it but this is definitely a turning point. Don’t get me wrong, I have always loved the way meat tastes but I always felt this immense guilt at the end of the day. Being neurotic about my weight, I finally made the decision to give it up and I started feeling amazing. I felt no guilt for indulging or eating an animal and it was one more thing I could rest easy about. Sometimes now I look at it as a decision I made to pacify other things going on in my life. But for now at least, I’m going to stay on the path and eat that makes my mind and body feel both good and at peace.

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January 1, 2010
 New Year’s Resolutions Run a 10K Stick to my vegetarianism and incorporate more raw food Find a haircolor I actually love Make at least 1 dress a month Complete my Level One Deutsch Rosetta Stone disc with fluency &….continue making and maintaining great friendshps

 New Year’s Resolutions

Run a 10K

Stick to my vegetarianism and incorporate more raw food

Find a haircolor I actually love

Make at least 1 dress a month

Complete my Level One Deutsch Rosetta Stone disc with fluency

&….continue making and maintaining great friendshps

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December 24, 2009
graceinplace: jaclynday: (via jeralyndwile) One of the all-time best Christmas movies! couldn’t agree more, can’t wait to watch this with the family at mom’s house.  Watching at this very moment! Every line is a classic :)

graceinplace:

jaclynday:

(via jeralyndwile)

One of the all-time best Christmas movies!

couldn’t agree more, can’t wait to watch this with the family at mom’s house.

 Watching at this very moment! Every line is a classic :)

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Never deterred!

It’s Christmas Eve… working tonight, not too thrilled but I’m going to stay upbeat and as soon as possible I’ll be back spending the eveing with my parents, the pups, and the Griswald’s!

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December 23, 2009
A new appreciation

I was talking to my ex-boyfriend/current best friend about how much I hated my nose and he said “what else would hold up your sunglasses or let you smell me.” He’s right..I won’t be so hard on myself.

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December 22, 2009
brave girl

I’m not scared of the dentist, only a mild scare for needles, but the hair salon…. I’m such a baby. I chicken out of appointments all the time, but today I am slightly overdue for a fresh cut so I’m doing a walk-in. Simply asking for some long layers, I shouldn’t be so fluttery but gotta follow through!!!

9:55am  |   URL: http://charmediamsure.tumblr.com/post/295121408
the eleventh hour.....

He took off his hat. I took off his shirt. There he really was. And without hesitation I said, “I know you” out loud. I barely knew him physically, but I felt so certain at that moment that our hearts had known eachother an incredibly long time.

Writing about this makes dealing with this better, talking about it makes me uncomftorable. But for now I’ll just bookmark this chapter.

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December 16, 2009
Of all the things I believe in, I just want to get it over with

I’d like to call. I’d really like to write. I won’t though.  I could never be satisfied with that. Two minutes, two silly little lines. What I want to say to you, all the things I want to say to you could only be said in a lifetime.

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December 14, 2009
But tell me you love me, come back and haunt me

I fell in love with someone I could only have for a minute. From the moment I turned around and saw him trying to get my attention I was his. It wouldn’t have mattered if he mowed lawns for a living I wouldn’t have felt any different. With him my heart and my mind felt so irrational and away, even with a rational everything being with him, going with him, going with him anywhere made perfect sense. It happened so fast my head is still spinning. I don’t know what to do with myself except to pray about it hard and make myself forget about it. I won’t be selfish and ask him to be here with me when his life is beginning again for him far away. Beginning again… without me, that’s what breaks my heart. I woke up Friday and it was as if the air that surrounded him travelled to me, whispered in my ear that he was gone. I had the most amazingly beautiful, tangible dream but when I woke up and I just knew.

                                  Tell me your secrets
                                  And ask me your questions
                                  Oh, let’s go back to the start

                                  Running in circles
                                  Coming up tails
                                  Heads on the science apart

                                  Nobody said it was easy
                                  It’s such a shame for us to part
                                  Nobody said it was easy
                                  No one ever said it would be this hard

                                  Oh take me back to the start

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December 13, 2009
According to two recent studies, in Britain and the United States, smarter girls were less likely to find a man who wanted to marry them. More bad news for girl geniuses, their chances were reduced dramatically in direct relation to their level of intelligence. "

tinyfactorygirl:

(via courtneyness)

 so uhhh, 164 is a curse then? I thought so…dammit.

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December 8, 2009
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead

Go about my business, I’m doing fine.

Besides what would I say if I had you on the line.

Same old story, not much to say.

Hearts are broken everyday.

I’m going to let him go without a sound because of my love. I barely know him, it makes no sense at all the way I feel. But then again it makes more sense than anything I’ve ever felt. Though not for long, in all this chaotic nothingness he made it amazing. I can’t regret something so rare. I’m here and well, you’re almost there. All I can do is pray about it and just let it go.

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December 6, 2009
Alabama was awesome! About to party it up. Tebow stop crying....... Roll Tide Roll!

tinyfactorygirl:

(via pearlsbeforeswine)

hate you allison. he’s crying bc his tears are Gods tears bahaha

 Mwahhahaha…Alabama winning was the only good part of my night. I hopefully  have a very happy man on my hands!

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December 2, 2009
a note to myself

You gave up some amazing opportunities for a man in the past and it kept you here, some good stuff happened, some bad stuff happened, but mostly you settled for mediocrity. Now again you’ve met someone, he’s amazing but if he’s that amazing he will want for you to succeed and follow your dreams too. Don’t give them up, follow what’s in your heart.  If he’s the man for you he won’t cower, he will stand by you.

Remember what you are good at, what you want to contribute to this world. You want to be more than a wife and a mom, you want to teach, design, build, perform, and serve your country. Don’t be shy from what has your name written on it. Don’t let your blessings go to the person below you, you are qualified, you deserve your chance to shine. You are not meant to be a background girl. Be proud of who you are and don’t be afraid of who you’ll discover along your journey. Refuse to let anyone make you as miserable as they are, kill those people with kindness. Always stand strong in your convictions. Don’t forget to smile, always be gracious and forgiving. Learn to move on from the petty things and the things that break your heart. Remember all the stories you’ve read. Take more photographs. Always eat well and bring your running shoes. Only say “I love you” to the people you love.

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November 27, 2009
"A poem begins as a lump in the throat, a sense of wrong, a homesickness, a lovesickness."

— Robert Frost

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November 26, 2009
I’m thankful for my Zoey… she probably thinks I rescued her but in reality she really rescued me. When I was in a really awful relationship she was the reason I came home to my awful little apartment and woke up in the morning. She is so beautiful and her spirit is so resilient.  She’s not a puppa anymore and I had to struggle to pick her up. Though her face is not letting on to how much she likes getting picked up and shown off, she very much loves it.

I’m thankful for my Zoey… she probably thinks I rescued her but in reality she really rescued me. When I was in a really awful relationship she was the reason I came home to my awful little apartment and woke up in the morning. She is so beautiful and her spirit is so resilient.

 She’s not a puppa anymore and I had to struggle to pick her up. Though her face is not letting on to how much she likes getting picked up and shown off, she very much loves it.

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